(Pre)Teen Novel Pitch – an introduction to queer love
Three different but very important processes, yes?
Step 1. Realize that you are queer.
Step 2. Admit to yourself that you are queer.
Step 3. Accept it.
I’ve made it to Step 3. It took a few years, but I did it. It all started with this girl. If she never told me how sexy I looked at that evangelical baptism, paraded me around the church on her arm, and then fell asleep with me while cuddling on her basement couch…maybe I would still think that I’m straight?
This went on for awhile. We got away with not discussing it with each other for three years. When we did finally talk? I was at Step 3. She was somewhere at 2. I learned that alcohol helps her deal with being queer.
The result? Once brimming with teenage love and lust, we now resemble a pencil that has been used down to the eraser.
Maybe if she had made it to Step 3 we could have ended up like a tragic love story. Like when they kill themselves. Or when they get married and then 30 years later realize the prevailing unhappiness and spend thousands of dollars on lawyers. Or we could have gotten hitched and spent our days drinking lemonade on the porch. Either way, we could have been epic. But of course. The absence of self-acceptance hinders any chance of a made-for-TV movie…and love.
Posted by qeewi.
on August 17, 2008 on 3:28 pm
OH GOD NOT THE MADE-FOR-TV MOVIES (AND NOVELS).
on August 17, 2008 on 6:31 pm
I think we need a good lesbian soap drama other than The L Word and South of Nowhere (sadly, those are the only ones I know and I’m not even sure if they count).
on August 17, 2008 on 9:48 pm
sugar rush was a fun show…the first season.
on August 17, 2008 on 10:06 pm
I loved Sugar Rush…both seasons! I had a BIG crush on Sugar *drools*
on August 17, 2008 on 10:47 pm
uh, hello guys. no self-acceptance = no drama.
on August 17, 2008 on 10:53 pm
no self-acceptance = repressed emotions = unhappiness
on August 18, 2008 on 2:29 am
yes anonymous, that is the point of the whole article. . . if you can’t accept yourself, then you can’t live tragically ever after in a beautiful love song.
you live sadly alone and unable to like loving someone.
on August 18, 2008 on 3:15 am
that’s poetic and all, but that contradicts the whole experience of love, which is suppose to be a grand and glorious sensation. why can’t you accept yourself and just be tragically in love like a true romantic?
on August 18, 2008 on 3:34 am
exactly! the best thing in life is being tragically in love… which you can’t be…. (according to this particular pre-teen novel pitch…) unless you can first accept that you yourself are hopelessly falling for a person of the same sex.
you can’t really fall for someone unless you’re comfortable with yourself falling… you know?
you can’t fall for a girl unless you can comprehend that falling for a girl is just as “normal” as falling for a boy.
the hope, of course, is that the girl we’re falling for realized she’s a lesbian and will fall right into us. cuz otherwise we get the shaft. the sad sad shaft.
haha.
on August 18, 2008 on 3:59 am
No matter what comes afterward, it’s unfair to ourselves and dehumanizing to leave emotions uncultivated. I can’t imagine warring on something that should be encouraged, or drowning the beautiful. It’s pitiful.
on August 24, 2008 on 8:06 pm
There’s also the issue of being scared of commitment… which can be mistaken for lack of self acceptance.
on August 26, 2008 on 3:28 pm
I just wanted to comment and say how much I loved this entry. Cause I loved it.